o my BIG TEMPTATION, please go away ! ssyyyuuuuuuhhhhhh ...

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii hate to face a temptation !

it's kinda hard thing that i have to get rid . gila banget ga sehh? it happened twice ! o mai God ! and i can't reject them . both of them ! pengen banget gitu ya kayanyaa nolak tapi susaahhhh . i don't know why it could happen . but, the more i face it, hurt is killing me! katanyaa sihh kalo engga ngerasain nano nanonya cinta tuuu kayaknya kurang sedeep gituu . tapi ini tuhh gilaaa . even it makes me crazy all the time . BLINDED BY LOVE !
i've faced it twice too ! it's hurt . because as time goes by, i realized how JERK they are !
it hurt me soooooo damn much ! and i know i've hurt someone too . sometimes i cried alone . thinking how jerk am i by doing this ! crazy . stressed . bored . i didn't care about your feeling, dear ! i'm so sorry .
i always promise to myself, but i broke it also . stupid, right? Jerk, am i?
yeaaa .
i always pray to God to give me strength when a temptation come over me . gua minta Tuhan biar ditebelin iman gue . hhe . susah sih emangg , tapi gua berusaha teruss !
i don't want to hurt you again ! you love me alot, i know that ! and so do i !

so sorry, dear !
i can't promise, but i'll try so hard
i love you full